It’s quite possible I’ve become ill. It could be down to a number of factors, which is annoying, because it means I don’t know exactly why and what this is. I have a sort of weak feeling, with achy muscles, and my skin feels sensitive to touch. I’d be inclined to think it was codeine withdrawal, if I happened to be going cold turkey, which I’m not. I’d be inclined to think it was the flu, but I don’t have the cough or the runny nose. Perhaps it is codeine withdrawal. Perhaps my body needs more to be satisfied. Codeine is also a constipator, so maybe my body is just full of toxic stuff. All I know for sure is that I feel weird. Perhaps it’s stress? I have been very stressed lately. Perhaps it’s wreaking havoc with my body. Perhaps the cortisol is making me sick. It’s the stress of being stressed. Perhaps it’s meningitis, in which case I’m done for. My last few hours will be spent here at work. I don’t want to die at work!
People here are pissing me off. All I want to do is go home and lie in a very hot bath, and die quietly in the comfort of my own home.
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Could be codeine withdrawal. Glad you aren't doing it Cold Turkey or that could cause some real problems. I'm just glad you are trying to get off of it.
Depression and stress also cause physical symptoms. It's possible you are stressing about the Paris trip? I was always sick with something when my panic disorder was in its heyday. Muscle aches are common because anxiety makes our muscles tense up. You don't even know you're doing it!
Do you have something positive you can do for yourself? A goal to work towards? Something that can take you out of the humdrum of ordinary life? Perhaps you are an artist? Maybe you'd like to have your work displayed in a gallery? Or, like me, go back to school to get a degree. Something that you, yourself, want that will help fulfill you. What is that? What do you really want out of life? Make a list (it's not easy but it can be done). Share some of those ideas.
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