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I’m not stressed anymore, or not excessively so, and I’m starting to recover from the horrible comedown from stress (headaches/lethargy etc) but I do have a problem. I used codeine during the stress and now it’s over I’m still using it. I feel like a junkie. Sometimes I take it then don’t think any more about it, just enjoy the effects. Now I take it and know that it’s not normal, that it’s becoming an issue, and then I wonder how long it will be before I begin to suffer for this dependence. Then I wake up in the morning and look at myself in the mirror and see the condition of my skin, and how pale and blotchy I look. I just look ill. My bag is full of empty painkiller packets.

I’m so sick of all of this.