It’s odd. I feel quite chirpy today. This doesn’t happen a lot, and it probably won’t last the whole day, but even so. It’s odd. I’m looking forward to tomorrow. Yes, looking forward to tomorrow. I’m going to Bluewater you see, it’s a massive shopping centre. My intention is to go xmas shopping, but I’ll probably just end up buying clothes, because I have no willpower. I’m excited – what the fuck is going on? I’m going two days a week without prozac now, in yet another attempt to get my emotions back. I expected darkness, I expected days of zombie existence, I expected lethargy and irritability. But not this. Not…….excitement. I’m always suspicious of The Good Feelings, especially these ones, because they’ve come from nowhere.
AH. Lightning bolt. I know why I’m happy. It’s a sunny day. It’s been dark and misty here all week. Today is the first sunny day. My brain is very sensitive, like a flower, it needs sunlight to work. In the UK the weather is very changeable. A few days ago we had a little snow. A few weeks ago there were floods. Global warming you see. It’s giving us bizarre and extreme weather conditions. And it’s messing with my head.
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Invest in fish-liver oil capsules (the body requires some vitamin D to keep its clock right), or move to sunny Sweden ;) We are supposed to get more clear-sky days per year than the Isles or Netherlands despite our higher latitude.
Btw here in Stockholm the winters are getting stranger and stranger: some non-perennial trees still have leaves on them, probably due to the warm spells between the snow.
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