A funny thing is happening. I seem to have split into 2 people. One is a child, and one is an adult. The childish part spends hours looking up TV programes on the internet that I remember from when I was a kid, and eating Kinder Eggs. The adult part of me looks at the childish part and shakes her head in confusion. I can act all grown up with my pinstripe trousers and air of maturity, but step into my bedroom and you’ll see the Kinder Egg bounty, the clothes strewn everywhere, the collection of Button Moon/Trap Door/The Girl From Tomorrow DVDs. My adult part knows that I’m just doing this as a way of recapturing the excitement I felt as a child, trying to re-live it, because it was safe, and I was still capable of feeling things like hope and also excitement from something as simple as a chocolate egg with a stupid plastic toy in it. My brain is tired of not feeling very much so it’s come up with a plan.
Seriously, I’m obsessed with Kinder Eggs. They were a treat when I was little. Now it’s just sad.
I recently discovered that you can buy ‘The Girl From Tomorrow’ and the sequel, ‘Tomorrow’s End’ on DVD. I LOVED these series.’ I was only about 10 when I first saw it. Now I can watch them again. Secretly, and with a vague sense of embarrassment.
What’s happening to me?
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- I wanted to write a blog about normal stuff, but it has turned into a memoir of depression, with a few mundane observations thrown in for good measure.
2 comments:
It seems like the older you get, the faster time goes by. It starts making you feel like someday you are going to close your eyes and it will all suddenly be over. I'm 31 but in some ways I feel like I am 17 and I just kind of stopped there. I have responsibilities but when I am alone and I have time to slow down. I think how can I be a mother? How can I be 31, I was just 17 where did the time go. It's okay to be young at heart and to embrace your youth. It keeps you young.
I love kinder eggs, shame i cant eat as many as i would like to these days. Enoy your inner child.
I enjoy your musings thanks I dont feel so alone.
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