Urgh

There is the distinct possibility that my medication is wearing off.

I've been crying at very odd times, for no apparent reason. I've been at a loss for things to say when with friends, and at work. I've been anxious for no apparent reason. I've been withdrawing. Sometimes when I'm at work I retreat into my head so much that I am barely aware of the people around me.

I can still smile though, and get out of bed in the mornings, so I haven't fallen too far. I will have to have a word with my GP, maybe up the dose. It's a game I've been playing for many years now. Up the dose, then move to something new, have several relatively sane months, then up the dose, and move to something new when I recognise the telltale signs of flagging seratonin.

SSRIs are rather good. They seem to do the trick. I'm on citalapram at the moment. There are a few side effects like increased sweating, and I've gone up a few dress sizes. I used to be a UK size 10. Long gone are those days! You might think those are quite disturbing side effects. But it's nothing compared to the depression.

Anyway, ho hum. I'm ok really. I can still function, and I had an ok weekend. I'm going to post some pictures on here later.